To the Limit
There are certain things that i want to rearrange. if only i could bring back time, if only i knew what’s right or wrong ( maybe i do know what’s right but still i refused to do it. ) if only i could fix what’s been broken. If only i could! (Sigh) Regrets! Regrets! Regrets! Yeah, regrets are always in the end. We sometimes made decisions that may lead us to the wrong way.
Way back, i can always get what i want, do whatever i like, go wherever i want to go, insisted things though i know it would cause me harm. Those are the things that made my life miserable. I even ignored my parents, i made them feel helpless about me, i made them feel not loved by me,
in short i disappointed them. That’s how hard my head was. (Lord i am so sorry for those.)I realized i focused on the things that are not important. I ruined my life. It’s me who deserves to be blame. I was always looking forward for some things that i forgot to prioritize my future/my life. The most painful thing was when my father passed away. Because he’s not around anymore and still I’ve got no reason to give for him to be proud of me. I let him lived his life having a disobedient daughter and i hate myself for that! I know it’s not too late. I still have my mom.
They say, ” Live life to the fullest. ” But i say to you guys,” Live life to the fullest with limitations.” All things in this world are limited; we only have 24hours a day. We don’t even know how long our life will be. Only God knows everything, every little thing.
I don’t want to carry these regrets for the rest of my life. I know it won’t help me. To Him, i submitted everything. He knows what’s right for me. i know He can manage, I believe He can rearrange my life. Now, I’m starting to step. I’ll make it sure that these steps will lead me to victory, for i know the Lord my God will guide me.
